Tuesday, August 4, 2009

I'm a survivor

Yes we are heading into day three. I have survived the return to the learning cottage. Did I cry? Yes. Did I constantly look at my phone with her picture on it? Yes. Do I feel like the absolute luckiest mother to ever return to work because of my sister? YES. I wish I could afford to pay her an astronomical amount of money for the priceless life she is giving me this year. She brings LJ up to my cottage twice a day for me to feed her and we are hoping that will continue to work when the kids actually show up. I'll keep you posted.

My new school year resolution is to focus on the things I enjoy about my job. If you know me you know that my leap into education has been rocky at best. You also know that making the decision to continue to work and leave mini-Seth at home was TORTUROUS at best. So now that its here I want to feel positive and hopeful about as much of it as possible. Here is my list:

1. I only have 15 students as of now as opposed to 20 last year. LOVE THAT.
2. I hate teaching math. I suck at it. However, I am taking a new direction with math in the hopes that I will learn to like it more. Wish me luck.
3. I feel like being in the learning cottage is isolating and lonely a lot of the time. This year there are two more teachers joining the trailer park. I probably won't work with them much, but it's nice to see more faces.
4. I have hopes and dreams about what I am teaching that I haven't felt strongly about until this year.

While I am embracing this new attitude I reserve the right to become a raving lunatic in the coming weeks.

By the way, if you read this blog please comment. Even if you have nothing to say about what I have been talking about I would love to hear from you!


  1. Hang in there Juana! I hope you have a great year and great group. I can't wait for the funny stories! Hope to see you soon. Love u!

  2. Keep writing, I love reading! :)

  3. I feel for you! It was PURE TORTURE going back to work after Kathryn was born!! I wish it would've been my sister caring for her instead of a stranger -- you are so lucky :) And to not have to pump at school?!?! That is awesome -- I made twice daily trips to the principal's bathroom, toting my pump and cooler. Talk about fun. Add those to your list of positive items :)

  4. I love the new optimistic positive attitude!

  5. I love you for wanting to be home with Lila. I love you for making the best of the situation you have. That's all any of us can do. And I love your sister for being a part of the solution to your fears about returning to work. I know it's torture not to be with Lila all day, every day. But seeing her twice a day is fabulous! I believe there's an end in sight. That's what you have to look forward to! You're the best, Jana,and so is Sara. I'm just so glad you two have this year together.

  6. That is SO awesome that your sister can bring LJ to you to feed!! That will make life so much easier! I hope it continues to work out!! :)


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