I am thankful

I have said this before, but I haven't been convinced that teaching is the best path for me. However, I am now really interested to see how this year goes and what my opinion of myself is going to be at the end of it. I only have 14 students this year which is kind of unheard of in public education. Last year I had 20 and the year before I had 18. Being in a learning cottage doesn't afford a lot of space so even two less kids (or two more for that matter) makes a huge difference. So to have SIX less than last year is like a whole new world. Not to mention, this class seems to be incredibly "mild". I feel like God looked down on me and thought, "this one either needs a really good year to make sure she sticks around or she just needs a really good year so leaving her little one at home is bearable". Either way, I want it to be noted that I am thankful.

Seth has become the nasty kind of sick that gives me nightmares. Sore throat, major congestion, total CRAP feeling kind of sick. Seth never gets sick. It gives me nightmares because when I get that kind of sick it takes an insane amount of time to go away and debilitates me more than I like to admit. I may just not handle it well, but speaking from past experience I am not prepared as a new mommy or as a beginning of the year teacher to catch this nastiness. At any rate, there are two teachers at my school that are recently dealing with breast cancer. This adds to the ever growing list of people I know that live and deal with cancer every day. Aside from this funk Seth has, we are incredibly healthy and for that, I am thankful.

Going back to work has been heartbreaking and overwhelming. I feel like balancing my life now is a job in and of itself. I'm at work and thinking about LJ. I come home and try to spend every minute playing with her/looking at her/talking to her until she goes to bed and yet my mind is swimming with all of the work crap I need to be doing. I also have an amazing sister (and two equally amazing friends, Christine and Crystal, who filled in for Sara this week while she went to Cabo) who is able to make going back to work the absolute best case scenario for me that it could possibly be. For that I AM THANKFUL.

So now that you know how thankful I am I will be going to bed because I am tired :-)