"Happiness often sneaks in through a door you didn't know you left open." - John Barrymore, Real Simple quote of the day

Have you ever felt like you are shedding some of the person you used to be?  At first I thought this feeling I was having was due to resolutions for the new year or the fact that I'm entering a new decade in my life.  But really, I think happiness just snuck in.  I know.  CHEESY.  However, it's the God's honest truth.  I have always considered myself to be a happy person, albeit tragically pessimistic. I have typically had a very low tolerance for quite a lot of things. Bad drivers, mouth noises, unexpected change, and being late are just a few occurrences that could throw me for a major loop and turn me into a crazy person. Ok, the mouth noises are still getting to me, but I am feeling a calm about myself that I haven't experienced in quite a long time. 

Now follow me as I really jump on the mushy, cheesy train. I have this sneaking suspicion that two things are the cause of the new me. Isn't it obvious? She's plastered all over this blog. I have always known I was meant to be a mother and it truly is the first thing I feel good at. I was hoping to feel that way as I'm sure all mothers do.  But, it's more than that. Lila as a person seems to make everything better. I think to myself in certain situations that normally I would be getting to that place where the craziness is going to come out. But recently it just doesn't. I even find myself waiting for it. I don't know if I just don't have time to dwell on the CRAP anymore or if she has changed me that much. 

Next we have my husband. He's different too, and I'm not sure he knows it. He is what you would call a work-aholic. He does know that. The difference is the partnership of parenting has inadvertently brought out more of what I have needed in him. He does the dishes more (or the most I should say). He notices more things that need to be done. I'm not saying he was a slacker before, but let's be honest. I believe that the woman typically just does more at home. It is what it is. That is changing in my house and I LOVE IT. Add in things like him asking my mom to get us three date nights for Christmas and it's love at 8 millionth sight. I'm just sayin.

Now, this could all be in my imagination and Seth may tell me I have lost my mind later. And that's fine if that is the case. He knows my crazy side more than anyone. I just hope that at least in my own head she stays locked up somewhere only to come out when absolutely necessary. Until then, thank you to my perfect little family for bringing me into 2010 and my thirties with a smile.